If I’m honest there are days when I think, “Can I even discern God’s voice?” There have been times when I feel so close to Him and there are LONG stretches when I wonder where God is. I wonder if He really is listening to me.
There are times when I think, “God I know you led me to this decision, so why are you so silent now that I’ve followed you?” I become unsure of myself.
A friend of mine was in town for spring break a few weeks ago and while we were catching up with each other, we got onto a great conversation about The Church — it didn’t start out that way, but that’s where we ended up. Truthfully, I’ve been mulling it over for weeks and it’s been very challenging to say the least.
As my kids have gotten older, and all their friends with them, I have begun to have conversations with some fellow parents about where life issues and matters of faith collide. We have friends whose children have decided they no longer believe in God or who make choices that are in conflict with God’s design for our lives.
In addition, my wife and I are starting to see some areas in our faith where we no longer believe what we were taught growing up. We are in the process of untangling some of these areas from our faith.
These two things have caused me to start thinking about how our faith should operate.
Over the years I’ve encountered many situations that forced me to deal with conflict. Naturally, I’m a non-confrontational leader. I’d prefer to have peace. However, what these situations have taught me are a valuable part of what God is creating me to be — not just as a “leader” but as a worshiper and follower of Jesus.